Something I wanted to share today, been on my heart. Forgiveness doesn't happen overnight for anyone, especially for me.
(Thanks Diane Stelling for putting this exactly as I was thinking)
I have come to believe that there is a disconnect between what people attribute to the act of forgiving and what the actual definition of the word really is. "Forgive" is used many times throughout the New Testament in many significant
passages, from the Lord’s Prayer to the words spoken by Jesus on the cross. The Greek word used in these passages for "forgive" is "aphiemi" and the literal translation is "to let go." It is an act of taking something away from,
not of giving something to someone, and therein, I believe, lies the confusion.
Forgiving for me with my bio-dad wasn't giving him forgiveness....it was letting go--no longer allowing the pain and suffering and the worry and terror continue to follow me all of my days. I have blogged about this before the noose around my neck. When you are sexually and emotionally abused by someone so close to you in your life, a parent, grandparent, sibling, loved one---it is detrimental. Abuse of any kind is terrible, but abuse by someone who is always there, someone that never goes away, someone who abuses you and you have to go sit at the dinner table with them and be respectful to them--is something unfathomable.
The fear, the worry, the constantly wondering what strings are attached.....being a child that never is able to experience true "unconditional love" is something that I could probably never be able to explain fully. There always being strings attached is a feeling that no one should ever have to go through.
"aphiemi"=to let go, give up a debt, forgive, to remit
I sure hope that this too will inspire you to be able to move beyond...find the true you and find your "Ultimate Aphiemi".
Love you all, praying for lives to be changed.